7 realisations in 7 days June 28, 2009

Monday- It is scary to wake up one day and realise that you have lost yourself in one way or another, to lose almost everything except your ugly face and unattractive body.

Tuesday-When someone challenged you, you  backed out not because you werent good enough but because theres no point in doing so-just to see who is better. Why do we want to prove we are better than others/ why not let others be better than us?

Wednesday- When planned things become NOTHING, whether or not we were looking forward to it  we all feel sad because we all lose sth (time, efforts, opportunities) and we started blaming whoever who is feelig worst than everyone else-yet who realises that?

Thursday- You neva know how much someone meant to you, even in such a short period of time, and more often than not, we realises it only when our days are numbered and we started missing the sounds and noises even before we leave.

Friday-It hurts to handover something you carefully and meticulously handled and then you realise how important is it to trust someone and to let go.

Saturday-Waiting is an agonizing emotion that only intensifies the pain and suffering-why not introduce initiative and choice to remove it completely but the bigger question is -is it possible?

Sunday- If only we knew what happens on this day on a saturday, will life be better or worst-I choose the latter.

World Refugee Day 2009 June 21, 2009

Right now, as war and violent conflict rage around the world, people just like you are running — for their lives, their families, their dignity and their freedom.  They often have to leave everything behind.  And they leave with nothing but their hope, courage and determination.  They are refugees.

incoherence June 21, 2009

I don’t know what I should blog about, or perhaps I don’t know where to start. Okays it will just be a very incoherent post, thats all.

Stupidity, isnt it something that you elite, supposed to tolerate, help, and above all embrace it for what you are today? Honestly, I am vvvv disappointed when i heard that because you didnt look like one. I dun wanna judge you and I respect you for who you are. I hate that title. sometimes i just feel pressurized. sometimes i just feel incompetent. sometimes i just feel not challenged. above all, I feel that I could do much more than that but inertia just keep building up. friends gave me breath, fun, joy, and quality time… really appreciated all of that.. soo, meng, sok, coceo, boon,val, rb,etc etc I LOVE YOU GUYS for your SPONTANEITY and childhood doings… OMG, who thought of playing bridge at marina barrage for one whole afternoon. ROCK pls…!! thanks for always bringing back that kind of happineess and FEELING that I had  6 years ago… my beloved oh sevens, i love them and always for their honesty and THEY for who they are. every one of us are charting both the charted and uncharted waters with our own personality…. engine, acc, biz,law,dentisty,mass comm, sci… til I feel jealous that I am not doing this this this and that that that. HAHA. individuals drifted, inevitable i guess and nothing to emo/sad about thats life isnt it?

tired since june started. come home at midnight every day coupled with filled weekends. i love it, tired, i can take it, meeting people, its a SURE and WHY NOT! above all, family always come first. i cabbed down today just to meet dad, and he felt touched. no this wasnt just fathers day, its something i really piroritise. lots and lots of thoughts, read books, consecutively on holocaust, couldnt comprehend and emphatise on the first book cuz the concepts explored were really absurd but true. read the seoncd one and hit right at the centre of my heart… and because of the misfortune that happened that day…

while toking to her that day, i realise sth about my mum that i felt ashamed of myself.. but nothing is too late, RIGHT? went ANU briefing with elisse cuz her mum not going with her at first… i guess thats all i can do just to spend a little more time with herrr.. cries… SOT grad gooona take a break soon le… after that will be stephhh,,, awww… spend like 3 days in a week with her last week… 15 august! I WILL MISS YOU!… and then SOK? HAIZ. saw the nushs gang today.. felt FUNNY, seriously and awkward, been like what ages since i seem some of them and perhaps i werent close to some of them to begin with but oh wells, really appreciate the gathering and just to listen the same tone and style of nushs people. thanks for the tub of signatures though! am really touched by it=) xie xie!

felt that reading empowers me and theres indeed lotsa choices to make…

I am aware I am selfish, ,undeserving, error-intakes, BAD, noisy, and all the rubbish you can think of..

BUT

I have learnt (still learning), to see, to comprehend, to trust and want the best for whoever you may be, to befriend, to emphathise, to give and to love the poor, the innocence, and the throwaways. And, I need to love myself.