SAC’09 July 26, 2009

I almost teared during the rehearsals on friday. Everything felt so surreal, eddie teo’s open letter made me realise how far we have come. Friday night, emptiness overwhelmed me as I thought about everyone’s departure and how little time (one saturday left) we have left to know each other better, to learn and help one another. Facebook msgs made me feel blessed and I felt thankful for everything. Saturday morning came with barely 5 hours of sleep and I received 2 msgs from my life teacher, mr tong. By then i couldn control anymore and i just cried at the train station. I was feeeling happy, grateful, and “ready” to start studying dam hard, to explore dam alot and to serve my country in 4 yrs time.

SAC ceremony. It was a proud moment to be humble about, cuz if not for everyone else, I would not have been there today. I shall hold true to the pledge we took and not forget you, you and everyone of you who made me what I am. The whole PDC is really short, we may never get to hear auyong’s jokes, create harmony and melody as a group nor squat outside the mrt as a SILVER team, (at least in a year time). Thank you guys like silver, mingda,cheryl,baojia, zhihao,junyang,jingsong,… for playing a tune in my life

For you who saw us through, this song is for you…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zWT546J3Fjg

“This is a song, for the ones who’ve been there all along
You watched us grow, and saw us through our highs and our lows
You picked me up, whenever I was feeling down
So this is a song, for the ones who make our world go round

Before I go away, this is what I want to say

For all the times I made you mad
With every single tear you shed
You showed me that you really cared
I thank you

First day of school, you stood outside the window and waved
Each morning you, made me peanut butter bread
Remember how, you used to drive me everywhere
And held my hand, all those nights that I was feeling scared

The memories that we share, they will take me everywhere

For all the times I made you mad
With every single tear you shed
You showed me that you really cared
I thank you (I thank you)

 For every sleepless night you had
For all your heartache, Mum and Dad
I never really told you that
I thank you

Bridge:

And in a while, we’ll be thousands of miles
From the comfort of your smile
While we are gone, remember this song
Remember we’ll keep you in our hearts

 For all the times I made you mad
With every single tear you shed
You showed me that you really caredI thank you

 For every sleepless night you had
For all your heartache, Mum and Dad
We never really told you that
We love you

We never really told you that
We love you
We thank you”

谢谢爸爸妈妈，希望你们不要太想念我，因为我太爱你们了。

thankful July 12, 2009

Felt really grateful to the eleven of them who make the past week a meaningful and memorable one. yuhyiing,xinying,joo,yuanzhi,calvin,hanliang,adrian,leonard,xianyi,jon,guanhui, I am really thankful that you guys crossed my path; even though we may not become colleauges or have little opportunity to even come face to face again, I am grateful to have known each and every single one of you.

Thanks for the sincerity in the friendships forged-you guys convinced me that steoreotype dosent exist!
Thanks for the spontaneous, initiatives and compassion that made peer appraisals harder than the A levels=x
Thanks for the acceptance, openness, and warmth that made PDC exciting, fun and NOT ENOUGH.
Thanks people, I wouldn have felt so comfortable sharing, LAUGHING and talking if not for you, you and the eleven of  you.

Met the LSE-UCL people during the networking session on saturday and it made me feel so EXCITED about london, school and everything else. kenneth,shida,xiaojun,syeyuet,zhihao-thanks for the friendliness and the london spirit!!

I am not sure if i am gullible,innocent or … but i am truly happy to know all of you, silver especially and I cant wait for us to come back 4 years later to share and rekindle what was left behind in us. Adrian,calvin and yuhyiinng lets MEET over there in UK and visit the rest in US and PRC…to build stronger and long lasting friendships:)

Everything feels so surreal at this moment.
Why me? Do I deserve it all?

The Beginning July 6, 2009

Today marks the first day of our PSC Pre-Departure Course.

Felt excited because it feels like the first day of “school” where everything is planned out for you from Monday to Friday just like the timetable we used to have. WIth Han Liang, it felt even more like going back to somewhere with someone familiar. And yeah it just feels GREAT. Met familiar people along the way too, yingzhen, greg from nus high and a few others whom I just happened to know through the “six degrees of separation” theory. The RJ majority didnt really bother me and I had FUN knowing all the new faces=). People of different aspirations, legal service, foreign service, teaching etc people of different personalities, characters, interests that intrigued me so much that I would love to know every single one of them at more than the superficial level. Loves the spontaneous  and enthusiasm shown by them, it feels so GREAT to know new people even though at the end of the day we may still part feeling empty deep down. That’s always the start isnt it? And yeah it has to start somewhere. And after these 3 weeks, all of us  will depart to pursue our passion, love, and challenge ourselves like neva before. Together, we bring with us expectations,responsibility and carry with us an annoying label that sometimes I wish it can just become invisible. Yeah we will all leave and come back to care, give and create a better future, hopefully.

As I glanced across the room today, I seriously think it was a miracle for me to be there today among the rafflesians, hwa chongians, victorians,etc etc etc. I have officially become part of the “elite group” that I used to refer to in my GP essays. And i stil want to claim that I am not an elite, I am just an ordinary bedok gal who have survived thus far with much courage, determination and LUCK. I still have so much to learn,  to care, to give and to love myself.

A new chapter demands a new introduction, a new body and a new conclusion.
A good chapter demands a braver introduction, an exciting body and a thorough conclusion.

But I want an extraordinary chapter,that demands nothing but an extraordinary conclusion…