luxury of time

Life has been real good these days with freedom, choice, and happy worries. Reading has never been more enjoyable though I still need lotsa time to understand the American history and the whole chinese culture and evolution. Airport send offs came one after another and I got reminded time and again how I will be leaving real soon. I guess theres nothing much to miss since everyone has moved on to the next phase of their lives with my peers either in army or ntu/nus/smu. I feel scared,excited,helpless and thankful all at the same time. With two of my closest friend in opposite parts of the world,  it hurts when I know I can only leave them offline msges and harbour the thought that they will be online at certain time of the day. It hurts me more when I realise I cant be there for them. As I wake up every morning, I appreciate the sleep I had the night before, the comfort my bed gives me and the time I have for the next 10 hours or so. And sometimes I wonder, what everyone else is doing right now.. I feel disconnected at times and I think blogging is the best way to stay connected with people (and I guess i will switch back to blogspot since people tag more than they comment though i really love wordpress .. how bout tengineurope.blogspot.com ha!) 

I have officially less than 30 days in sg, feels funny, surreal, and nothing much actly. When the time comes, you just go and take on whatevers coming your way. So cool, I dunnoe who I will meet and what I will see., that in itself is something to look forward to as it opens up so many possibilities and opportunities for things to happen or rather, for me to make things happen, ones that will change the world, for the better hopefully. Ran 10k last sunday and I had so much fun. I did not run as diligently as I wished to but i truly enjoyed the 10km run. You just couldn stop, because others were running and you shouldn cuz you neva noe if you will become the source of inspiration to the one beside you… I felt so satisfied after it and I am not sure when I will take up the 21km challenge. Til then..

I guess I neva know how parents feel until I become one? I guess they feeel helpless because they cant show how much they love me to let me go…I am not sure why I am not exactly free, theres just sth to look forward to and somebody to meet each day and i greatly appreciate that  

Just came back from a dinner with the p of RSS and some teachers, apparently the 3 of us boosted the morale of the teachers and students there and therefore the dinner. It was great to see my p1 chi tcher, p4 sci tcher and p6 english cher and they can still remember me though I dont really have a very vivid impression of my life when I was 7,8,9,10,11,12 years old. Nevertheless, they definitely played an important part in my life and I should be grateful to them . AND TMR!  I am going down tj for a ‘photo-shoot” in the morning, mahjong session at lenny’s place with guanhui and weijun in the afternoon followed by a scrapbooking session at madewithlove!