… September 20, 2009

ITs 3:34pm now. a few more hours and I will be flying, far far away. Thanks for meeting me up week after week, months after months and years after years to show me how much you guys really care. Friendships have always withstood the test of time and I am not afraid to leave because nothing can destroy all that  that have been forged over the days, weeks, months and years.

As  I leave tonight, at the presence of all of you who love, care and stood by me,  I promise I will change and I will change for the better:)  Keep in touch with me as I move back to blogspot to enjoy the convenience of a tagboard at www.livecooly.blogspot.com.

Goodbye.

Asiaworks BT September 6, 2009

I applaud asiaworks for being able to come up with a programme that made me tear from 10am to 10pm. =p

A life changing experience that I will never EVER forget…

Theres no such thing as no choice, I will choose responsibly, bravely and honestly.

I will neva be a victim because there’s always a responsible version for the bad results, outcome and the relationships I will face in life.

Beliefs stem from past experiences. They arent facts, they arent true. I will break boundaries by going out of my comfort zones.

I know whats the number one thing thats important to me. – the people who love me… 

I always thought I could only give and never receive but I received so much love from so many people in one night.

We vote people in life, every single one of them, and I have learnt to be open and authentic to everyone who walk into my life.

Goals are there, for us to reach and realise and considerations are meant to be overcome.

Results are a reflection of our intentions-believe it or not.

Relationships are meant for us to experience the purity of giving without asking for any returns, and love is not love until it is given away and i chose to love a human bravely.

I just want to feeel, to experience and connect with human’s deepest emotions.

I feel empowered, enlightened and energised. I wanna face life with love, passion and drive. 

Thank you cynthia and mr tong for showing how much you love me. I have neva felt so loved thank you.

UCL SingSoc’09 September 1, 2009

UCL singsoc fresher’s camp’09.

A whole new begining with new faces to remember and new voices to get accustomed to. Learnt many many many names and spoke to many many many other people, with a majority majoring in law, economics, geography and the rest (maths, medicine, linguistics, art, etc). It was GREAT to know lotsa people before we actually plant ourselves in a foreign land and i am so happy to find this guy  who is taking the same flight as me and staying in the same hall and we can dot2dot tgt (is a cheaper than cab service which brings you from heathrow airport to where you wanna go) LOL. the 2oth  2330 flight is really flooded with ucl freshers and it suddenly daunt on me that i should check in earlier so that theres a higher probability that the passenger service guy will close one eye if my baggage exceeds 30kg zzz which i believe the hundreds of passengers on board will too LOL. 

Camp was alright,  sometimes i feel we have somehow outgrown orientation camps.. and thus I have nothing much to comment on it but I am certain it wasnt as wild as local uni camps because the whole “SDU” concept wasn’t implemented at all:)  getting old uh? Monday was amazing race and i think small talks along the way make us learn about each other more to move away from just being mere accquaintances. I guess the coolest thing was that people spoke with so much conviction.. i guess by choosing to go overseas, many have thought hard about who they are and what they wanna do…but life is a gamble on its own.

Left the amazing race halfway to meet my beloved classmates and VINCENT GOH in ntu. When I left, I felt good, because I know I have made friends (and i really mean FRIENDS), not one or two but at least three or four. Meeting the familiar faces at ntu certainly brought back many wonderful feelings and even though its just an hour for me, it meant so much. I have always feel a little sad when I tunnel through the ntu buildings on the shuttle bus to pioneer mrt because it almost became my school with friends and family (MY DEAREST SISTER) giving me the comfort of their smiles. But I didnt feel so ytd, as I put on the shirt that says “ucl singsoc fresher’o9″, because I truly understood where I belong and am convinced of the path i have chosen for myself. the begining is always tough and filled with hate and jealousy but all that will be over by the time summer’10 falls..

Met this guy coincidentally at EW4 who happens to be a LSE yr 2 and heading to nsrcc like me to join back the bbq. The guy who believes in second chance because he was a victim once but whats more important is who he is now.. but sometimes, we may not even be given a second chance, or should we be optimistic about life and say that there will always be one from ourselves?

Theres many many things to buy before I actually leave. everything from lugguage to hangers. ALAMAK. and many many people to visit like the dentist, the optician and the hairdresser. And my intended date of return is either 19 dec’09 OR summer’2011. It feels so surreal to leave and someone told me ” leaving is sad but the feeling of being left behind is sadder”. AWW. 

nineteen more days, to indulge in the warmth of my loved ones.